Energizer Mommy

I stayed home from work sick today...For the past two days I have felt exactly like I did when I was in my first trimester, morning sickness and all. Ugh. The only difference this time is that I am so big I can hardly bend over the toilet. I'm not sure if the baby is pushing on my stomach more than she has been or if it's because of the meds I am on. Whatever the reason I think I would give just about anything to make it go away. I can handle the ickyness......but I can't afford to take a lot of time off of work before the baby comes, and I certainly can't just forget about taking care of the girls and things around the house. I don't get a break from being Mommy just because I don't feel well.

To make it worse Kevin has decided to go back out on the road until the end of October. As one might expect I am less than thrilled about this. I understand he is concerned about our finances while he looks for another job. I get that, I really do. But how can I put this....a huge part of me is just screaming I DON'T CARE!!!! There are days when I work from 7am until 5pm, come home, make dinner, give baths, read stories, etc...This is all fine, well and good...It's what I signed up for when I wanted kids and I wouldn't change it for the world. However, when I had the girls I never thought that I would be doing all of it by myself over 90% of the time. Especially being pregnant. I do my best not to become resentful of Kevin or his decisions but there are days when I wish he could feel what I feel...I need to get him one of those fake bellies to wear around when he's working so he can see what it's like. LOL. Maybe then he'd really understand what it would be like to function as an Energizer Mommy.