Once again I was alone this past weekend with the girls and I am sad to say that it became a "Good Mommy/Bad Mommy" weekend. Ellie has arrived at the age where she has an opinion about everything (can't imagine where she gets that from!) and isn't afraid to tell you. According to my oldest I did several things this weekend that made me a good mommy. These included:
Played blocks
Bought the girls their Halloween costumes
Watched "A Tigger Movie"
Let Ellie have pizza for dinner
Took them to get a treat when we were in Wal-Mart
Of course, with all of this I also did some "bad mommy" things. These included:
Decided it was Emma's turn to choose a book and not Ellie's
Didn't tuck her bedsheets in right at bedtime
Didn't let her watch a fifth episode of "Max and Ruby"
Wouldn't let her play in the snow when we went out to the car (I can't believe I used the S word)
I yelled at her for closing the closet door on her sister
For me personally I thought I was doing alright most of the weekend. I didn't really get the "Bad Mommy" feeling until Ellie got REALLY mad and said that she wanted to "call her daddy" because he would "tell mommy to be nice." Why is it that kids always long for the parent who is never there? Why is it that I feel jealous when I go out of my way to make sure that Ellie and Emma both are happy, safe and sound and all they want is their daddy? Who took Ellie to her first movie last weekend? Who sits through an entire season of Scooby Doo? Who, at 36 weeks pregnant, still bends down to do a Tidal Wash at bath time?? That would be me, folks! I want them to love their daddy, to miss him, to be happy when he's home...I honestly do. Ugh. I don't know. I think being around my little ones is starting to make me think less like an adult and more like a child.
1 comment:
If it were Kevin at home...they'd be doing the same thing to him. Wanting you, missing you, and asking for you. You know you're an excellent Mommy - and I know that sometimes no matter what you do, you don't feel like an excellent Mommy, but you are :). And as ridiculous as it sounds...sometimes it's REALLY hard to be the bigger person with small children (despite the fact that we're all well into our 20s and they're under 4.)
On another note, good job on getting through FOUR episodes of Max and Ruby, because of all the shows on television that we watch and don't watch, THAT show drives me the most insane.
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