Lately I have been having a lot of thoughts about what type of mother I am. My conclusion?? Not the best. I know a few things for sure-
I try my hardest every day to give each of my girls love and attention.
I do my best to help my girls grow into the women they are supposed to be
I try to accept each of my girls for who they are and not compare them to each other
I try to balance lessons with love, education with acceptance
Sounds great, right? So what's the problem? Well...time. That's my main obstacle. I work 40 + hours per week, keep the house clean, sometimes cook dinner, etc. I run out of time for it all...And sometimes I run out of patience. I don't have time to make sure that everything my girls eat is healthy. I don't have time to choose the best, most organic of choices. I don't even have time to seek out and buy the best educational toys out there. I should have time for these things, and so many more. I try to make the time for these things. But trying and doing are two totally different things!!!
What are my girls going to remember of me when they get older? Will they remember that their mommy always tried her hardest to make things good for them? Or will they simply remember that their mommy always tried but never succeeded? Will they even know I tried?? Truth be told, I try not to ask these questions too much because the possible answers do nothing but terrify me.
I want to be the best Mommy I can be--Number One to my girls. However, I am terrified that I won't make it. And I don't want to settle for Runner Up.
4 comments:
The thing your girls will remember the most - that you loved them. Plain and simple. Love conquers all - that, Flintstones vitamins and Neosporin. Hang in there - it's not a cliche, it's the truth. Love 'em & that's what they'll remember. My guess - you're a superb mom!!
Cindy
awww thank you so much. I really appreciate the kind words...You always know what to say to bring a smile :D
Oh boy, Woman. From the sounds of your last couple posts - you need a vacation :). You're an excellent mother, and your girls know that you love them. It's hard to forget the times when patience was a little thin or voices got a little raised, but there are so many more times when that didn't happen. You rock :) Now go book a trip to Tahiti ;-)
Laura, first let me say thank you for showing me that I'm not the only one who worries about not always doing my best. Secondly, let me tell you what Andy always tells me- the baby loves you. Doesn't matter if the house is clean or you've got makeup on or if his socks match- he loves you. And all you have to do is love him back. We all know you love your girls, and all you have to do is keep that part going. The rest will fall as it may. xox
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